Certainty

There is one thing about which I hold myself certain. One thing I consider inviolable truth. It is that certainty is poison to the human spirit. The more certain you are of something the less human you become. Witness fundamentalism everywhere.

If you are certain of something then that is something that you must do your utmost to inject doubt into. Examine under the light of many worlds, consider it as the ancient Persian would both drunk and sober, include as many more altered states as your lifestyle allows, consider whether you would believe the same if your moral basis were built upon something else. Perform experiments, physical or social as necessary, to test your understanding and the veracity of your certainty and keep notes. Make it impossible for yourself to ignore the edges of your certainty where logic or fact tells you otherwise. Because once you refuse to allow yourself to see one small facet of reality you begin to blind yourself to all of it. And thence, by all measures of psychiatry, lies madness.

I have yet to find evidence that certainty in any thing does more good than harm. However while there are truths that lack contrary evidence there are no truths that merit certainty. I accept even my initial statement in this post as a poison, it poisons my ability to make statements unambiguously and it poisons my ability to trust in the things that people say. Frankly, that may be a good thing in some cases. I accept that one poison regardless but no further. No other certainty will I knowingly accept into my self.

Dissonance

So I read this

The uncomfortable tension caused by these two opposing ideas — wanting to smoke but also wanting to be healthy and fit — is known as dissonance. As humans, we look to get rid of this uncomfortable feeling. (This is known as dissonance reduction.)
The only way to get rid of this uncomfortable feeling is by a) quitting smoking b) denying that people actually get sick from smoking or c) justifying and rationalizing.

In some comments and it strikes me that I didn't resolve my own cognitive dissonance around smoking but redirected it. Instead of focusing on the dissonance between the damage and pleasure of smoking I shifted to focusing on the dissonance between the pain of quitting and the cost of continuing. The short term pain of quitting smoking is dissonant with the desire to quit but in rolling down the stress curve towards reducing the cost of the habit I think I unconsciously made it significantly easier to quit. I stopped mitigating the smoking dissonance and worked towards mitigating the quitting dissonance. And the only real solution to that dissonance was taking direct action.

Granted that the procedural option I used (stepping back consumption on a week to week basis with no nicotine crutches) probably helped but I suspect the psychology described above played a part in at least making the commitment against the pain of quitting. In other words it pulled down one side of the wall I was trapped behind and allowed me to commit to climbing out.

Then again maybe I'm just an amateur deluding himself.