I think of clever, appropriate way to punish myself for the things I know I should not do. Ostensibly for the purpose of changing my behavior. And then on reflection I realize that they don't perform that purpose and serve to cause me further harm in somewhat counterintuitive ways. And I realize that punishment is neither necessary nor productive in a forgiven world. If God doesn't see a need to punish me why should I? By extension my children.
I am forgiven, my children are forgiven, by a higher power, knowledge, and wisdom than I could ever hope to achieve. What am I then to mete punishment? How then to effect changes in behavior? Faith, certainly. Love, and dialogue? Internal dialogue for myself, and serious discussion with my children I suppose.
Now... to change my behavior towards infractions... catch-22. Time to lean. :)
